Right this minute, I'm finding myself missing the good old days of having all the answers spelled out for me. Want to know what sort of church to join? Well, do they follow the WCF and the Regulative Principle? Ah, but there's the rub --- I knew people who argued about and broke fellowship over the correct way to apply the RGW.
But it's not just the Regulative Principle that I'm oddly nostalgic for...
The truth is that, for me, certain forms of legalism will always beckon me, sort of like the leeks of Egypt beckoned the Israelites. Would I give up freedom for leeks? Would I give up freedom for having all the answers spelled out for me, for knowing what to wear every day, for having a small but safe fellowship based on similar "convictions", for being so all-fire sure of myself?
Some days I am just so tired.
And that's the problem, you know. I'm the one who is trying to do all this, trying to work through it, trying to figure it out, trying, trying, trying. I need to look to Him, the One Who has set me free. He didn't set me free to set me adrift. He set me free in order that I might live for Him. Not for principles, not for rules, not for a lifestyle --- but simply to live for Him.